Chapter Fifty Six: Feelings.
I just realised that this whole blog thing is like a super non secret diary. I can pour my heart out on here and I know that people are reading it. Ed especially. Hi Ed! In the spirit of this whole ‘diary’ thing I thought I would actually post some of my thoughts and feelings, it’s going to be long. A few months ago I was receiving some pretty stressful emails, I won’t get into what they were but I won’t lie they were stressing me out and it was making everything feel a lot more heavy that it really needed to be. The emails have thankfully stopped and I no longer feel my heart beating a mile a minute every time I open my email account and see that I have some unread messages. Since they have stopped and our house hold has acquired a un wanted feline my feelings just seem to be... blossoming. I no longer feel like a Sheldon and I can connect with people on an emotional level and show emotion myself. I don’t know what’s changed but I just feel like nothing can bring me down lately and I’m so happy, I can’t remember ever being this happy and I just don’t know the cause but I swear to god that if it gets taken away from me I will seriously cry. I’m still terrified about what I am going to do when college ends and I still feel the stress of impending assignment on my shoulders but at the same time I don’t feel so pressured, I feel like I finally have a chance to really be myself and show everyone else who I am.